We alighted when we got to our junction, walked and talked some more. I didn’t take her number then. I liked the girl – but Naana had taken over my mind. Damn!
* * *
At this point, for some reason, Mark and I had become very close. During vacation, John, Mark, Patrick, Fiifi (the last guy to join the squad before we completed JHS) and I will meet and play FIFA. We were good friends but somehow Mark and I talked a lot. Maybe because we had so much to say about girls, guitar and then games – which is where John comes in. Patrick didn’t really like computer games so he’d usually forfeit our meetings, but he was still part of the squad.
John knew how much I liked Naana. He would make jokes about it, sometimes he’ll encourage me that it’ll be ok. Mark also knew, everyone knew but with time Mark and I shared more detailed information about whatever was going on in our lives.
* * *
So now this girl… she seemed like a very good girl for me. She was close by, pretty, younger – she was my junior by 2 years. She saw me differently and it seemed things would work out fine if I tried but I didn’t. I was not gonna give up on what I felt for Naana. I was willing to prove to her that I was real, that I would always be there for her. Silly boy I was!
A good advice
Fast forward… In no time, we were in year 3. Still same old me trying to win Naana’s heart. Kobby kinda saw what was happening and it finally popped up in our conversation. I told him how I felt about her. In fact, the whole class knew! I was that bad at hiding my feelings. Kobby advised me to let her go. Kobby is a very focused guy and I liked him, I liked his attitude. I wish I was that focused, because in my state I was still a very good student. If only I could focus and stop all these silly things, then I would probably top and top well. He told me the same story every adult tells we the young lovers. “Your wife is probably in basic school right now, forget about this girl. Your taste would change with time and you might break up with her which wouldn’t be good at all”.
It was a good advice. I thought about it, I decided to let her go.
Did I succeed? No! I failed, my emotions had taken over and I was very vulnerable. I hate those days! Naana seemed so strong and I seemed so weak, damn!
I didn’t know how to talk to Kobby about it again so well I gave up and continued with my silly behavior. I didn’t mind doing stuff for her. Not knowing, deep down she really wished she would tell me to man up and stop being so soft and defenseless.
There were days she got upset with me for doing nothing. Those were the times I would try to get even closer, meanwhile that’s what is pissing her off. She was tired of constantly seeing me around her, seeing me trying to please her.