“Hmm… well, that girl doesn’t like me. You’ve been a really good friend to me and I really like you a lot too.”
Usually I would move so fast when there’s a chance like this, but my feelings for Naana sort of held me back.
I started playing her favorite play-list on my laptop. They were all love songs, her favorite, which made the atmosphere even more charged.
“It’s complicated…” She said
“Hmm… yeah. “ I replied
“I really enjoy talking to you, you know. Your voice really has this softening effect on me that makes me wanna talk to you for hours non-stop.” The vibes were flowing…
“Awww, but you know I really love your voice too” She replied.
“Really? I don’t like my own voice tho”
“Hahaha… well I do.” She replied.
This kind of light flirting went on for some time, but we really never dated. We didn’t go deep either, we preserved the friendship.
* * *
Naana was still the one I really wanted. I realized my feelings for her wasn’t based on just external factors like beauty. I had built an everlasting craving for her in my life, overtime. We became more cool.
With time, our (Naana and I) chats got a bit more lively, it wasn’t as one-sided as it used to be. However, I remained too nice and she kept making use of me whenever she needed to. Then one day, I think the universe decided that enough was enough… change came!!
Nice ending of niceness
It was a Saturday morning and I had to go for classes. I was thrown into thinking and worrying by just a thought… It was a thought about my current situation with Naana. I was doing everything possible to get her to love me. Why would she choose a guy she feels isn’t taking her anywhere over me? Well, it’s her heart cos in her mind, she’s chosen me. But her heart is what matters in the end; it’s what I have to win. I was just thinking and thinking… “God please let her love me, she wants to but she just can’t get over that guy” I prayed.
Then all of a sudden I got an idea. I just decided to google something. I took my phone (Don’t tell me you expected me to be using a yam (non-smart phone) at this time. C’mon I’m in final year) and typed “how to make someone fall in love with you” into Google’s search bar and hit enter.
That was when everything changed!! I got results which led me to a website that changed everything. I started reading hungrily, I feasted on the information like my life depended on it – because it did!
I got to know about all the things I’m doing wrong! I realized I wasn’t doing myself any good by being extremely nice to Naana. I was being stupid, I was acting like I had no self-worth and that she’s the most important thing in the world, that my own self-image was of no use to me. No wonder she just made use of me when she needed me. She was even generous to try and like me.
I learnt a lot that day! Now I was faced with two options. I could learn how to get over her or I could learn how to win her heart. Wow! Knowledge is indeed power. Don’t ask me the name of the site, I’m not telling you!
To be continued…